Well, this has been an eventful week to say the least.
I didn’t expect my last weekend to end up the way it did, but little did I know, the unexpected always seems to creep up and mess with the best of situations. What was suppose to be dinner and dancing, didn’t really end up that way, and to that effect, I’m flooded with feelings which have slightly melted my cold jaded mind; just a little bit anyway.
It’s not hard to recall, feelings for another person. I once had them before and they were broken pointedly and abruptly. Nothing like being the odd man out, to really change one’s perspective on relationships. It was hard to let go of that anger and disgust, at her and myself. It was a crappy ending to what should have been a much more fruitful story.
So I find myself wondering the obvious. Should I make a concerted effort, or just let things come, as they are now. Does it really matter what I do, perhaps I should relinquish my thoughts to God, and his infinite wisdom, yet, I find myself bothered by the thought. If I don’t make an effort, should I find myself with regret?
I’m over thinking this, maybe I should just be myself and if it comes around, then I’ll be deal with it then,
